Screw the Lemons!!

 

Screw the lemons!

Please NOTE:

This post was made & saved as a draft back when life was hunky-fucking-dory and there were no black clouds looming on my horizon.  I think it is a nice post with a nice message, so I am putting it out there.  However, in my world the shit has hit the proverbial fan and I am bordering on suicidal-not to mention the fact that I am bawling like a cow & smelling like one too.  The explanation to that will come in my next post.  For now, enjoy these earlier, happier days! On to………

SCREW THE LEMONS!!

We’ve all heard “When life hands you lemons, make lemonade!!”.  Overall, it’s great advice and I am a staunch proponent of making the best of the hand we’re dealt. However, there’s a problem with the actual application; when one is mired in a rotten lemon pile, it’s pretty damned hard to mobilize the squeezer.

With that being said, I AM in lemonade land right now.  Life is good for me and things are going my way in all directions right now.  Why am I posting this then?  Because life is about cycles.  If one is on top of the heap now then it is reasonable to anticipate settling downward.  As a non-physics major I can’t spout the formula but I’m sure it’s one of the universal laws of the universe or something like that.

My take-away message?  Plan ahead, stay prepared, be humble, be positive, pay it forward because we only have two choices: we can hide out or help out.  Ride the wave of good times, just be prepared for when the tide goes out. 

Reinvention

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Since my last post, I have been very busy doing nothing. My health condition has continued to complicate things and I am no longer working.  Initially, I was quite certain the entire world would come to a screeching halt and NEVER, EVER again rotate on its axis.  Well luckily I was wrong, and I am slowly coming to terms with my new life.  For now, I am making lots of decisions about my future and looking at available alternatives.  However, my primary plan is to earnestly dig in and see what (if anything) will help me feel better.

I will blog my progress, within the confines of my flagging energy level, and hope to discover something that might help other ailing Spoonies!

 

ev·o·lu·tion

‘The gradual development of something, especially from a simple to a more complex form.’

Compliments of Google Dictionary

 

Opportunity has arrived; I am moving forward!  Much more to come.

ch-ch-ch-CHANGES!

Brief update:

My mom had a stroke in October and has moved in with us.  We are adjusting…….

Uncomfortable…

Ya know, it is a decidedly uncomfortable situation when one is caught in a set of circumstances that cannot be quickly remedied.  No matter how fast options pop up, none are fast enough to remedy the awkwardness of here and now. 

Wanting to be ‘enough’ but not being enough.

Being asked to explain then not being believed.

Feeling like a failure even though circumstances say success……

The dichotomy of life–can’t live with it; can’t live without it.

 

 

 

 

Symptom Diary? Food Diary??

Given the downward turn my health has taken, I guess it’s time to brush off the old, dusty practice of keeping symptom & food diaries.  On the good side, it makes me feel like I’m taking charge of my health & trying to manage the things within my control. Keeping track of things helps me identify triggers and patterns; those are things I can do something about.

On the less entertaining side, it pisses me off that I have to watch & micro-manage every aspect of my life in order to feel somewhat “normal”.  I already feel like I’m having to dumb-down my life to manage my energy crisis.  I also busted my ass to finish a master’s degree that I can’t do a whole lot with on a part-time basis….. RANT!

Anyway, I will manage what I can & begrudgingly accept what I cannot.  Consider the symptom & food diaries dusted off and in use……..

 

 

 

Time Marches On

Since my last check-in I have:

1. Put my home on the market

2. Moved in with my sweetie of 10+ years (what took me so long??)

3. Faced some difficult health truths

4. Become a grandmother for the second time–welcome Jaxin!!

5. Realized that working full-time is not an option for me–a part-time option is on the horizon

6. Fallen into the depths of menopause

7. Braced myself for turning 50 in January but have NOT come to terms with what is happening to my body.

Time marches on…..

Cats Stealing Dog Beds

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The Down Side

As usual, I’ve been hit-and-miss posting (bet you guys figured it out!). 

I have been learning a tough lesson….. I’m sure you’ve heard the adage “You’ve got to take the good with the bad”.  Well, I will go a step farther:  Sometimes the good IS the bad.  What brought this on, you ask??  What has shaken my usually perky, positive demeanor???  My glass-is-half-full persona???  Well, it’s like this:  I have a marvelous life, a promising career, plenty of money (relatively speaking) and all of the promise that a middle aged woman could wish for; sounds pretty freakin’ awesome doesn’t it??  Well get THIS:  I DON’T HAVE THE ENERGY TO LIVE MY AWESOME LIFE.  Looks like it’s time for a hard earned existential life crisis ya’ll…..  WTF……  More to come…..

 

 

My Next Right Thing

For oh-so-many years I have been compelled to buy local, support small businesses, down size and spend time doing what I felt was important.  Sometimes I have been more successful at it than others and sometimes I have lost my way entirely–having to travel full-circle to remember who I was & who I wanted to grow to be.

Well, today I joined a local farmers coop.  I have wanted to for years but was totally unaware that we had one in the area.   Not only do we have one–we HAVE HAD for almost 10 years!  Wondering where MY head has really been…..  Anyway…

After work today I stopped in and looked around, comparing prices with our local supermarkets & the sites I have been ordering from.  I was surprised at how competitive the prices are and happy with the variety of things they have. ….So I signed on,  picked up a load of local, organic  goodies and feel great about seizing the opportunity.  What have you guys done that made you feel you’ve done something good for yourself and made a difference in your community?