Uncomfortable…


Ya know, it is a decidedly uncomfortable situation when one is caught in a set of circumstances that cannot be quickly remedied.  No matter how fast options pop up, none are fast enough to remedy the awkwardness of here and now. 

Wanting to be ‘enough’ but not being enough.

Being asked to explain then not being believed.

Feeling like a failure even though circumstances say success……

The dichotomy of life–can’t live with it; can’t live without it.

 

 

 

 

Symptom Diary? Food Diary??


Given the downward turn my health has taken, I guess it’s time to brush off the old, dusty practice of keeping symptom & food diaries.  On the good side, it makes me feel like I’m taking charge of my health & trying to manage the things within my control. Keeping track of things helps me identify triggers and patterns; those are things I can do something about.

On the less entertaining side, it pisses me off that I have to watch & micro-manage every aspect of my life in order to feel somewhat “normal”.  I already feel like I’m having to dumb-down my life to manage my energy crisis.  I also busted my ass to finish a master’s degree that I can’t do a whole lot with on a part-time basis….. RANT!

Anyway, I will manage what I can & begrudgingly accept what I cannot.  Consider the symptom & food diaries dusted off and in use……..

 

 

 

Time Marches On


Since my last check-in I have:

1. Put my home on the market

2. Moved in with my sweetie of 10+ years (what took me so long??)

3. Faced some difficult health truths

4. Become a grandmother for the second time–welcome Jaxin!!

5. Realized that working full-time is not an option for me–a part-time option is on the horizon

6. Fallen into the depths of menopause

7. Braced myself for turning 50 in January but have NOT come to terms with what is happening to my body.

Time marches on…..

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