Reinvention


Since my last post, I have been very busy doing nothing. My health condition has continued to complicate things and I am no longer working.  Initially, I was quite certain the entire world would come to a screeching halt and NEVER, EVER again rotate on its axis.  Well luckily I was wrong, and I am slowly coming to terms with my new life.  For now, I am making lots of decisions about my future and looking at available alternatives.  However, my primary plan is to earnestly dig in and see what (if anything) will help me feel better.

I will blog my progress, within the confines of my flagging energy level, and hope to discover something that might help other ailing Spoonies!

 

ev·o·lu·tion


‘The gradual development of something, especially from a simple to a more complex form.’

Compliments of Google Dictionary

 

Einstein

Opportunity has arrived; I am moving forward!  Much more to come.

ch-ch-ch-CHANGES!


Brief update:

My mom had a stroke in October and has moved in with us.  We are adjusting…….

Uncomfortable…


Ya know, it is a decidedly uncomfortable situation when one is caught in a set of circumstances that cannot be quickly remedied.  No matter how fast options pop up, none are fast enough to remedy the awkwardness of here and now. 

Wanting to be ‘enough’ but not being enough.

Being asked to explain then not being believed.

Feeling like a failure even though circumstances say success……

The dichotomy of life–can’t live with it; can’t live without it.

 

 

 

 

Cats Stealing Dog Beds


http://www.tastefullyoffensive.com/2013/10/cats-stealing-dog-beds-compilation.html

Watching this made my day better! I love http://www.tastefullyoffensive.com

Video

The Down Side


As usual, I’ve been hit-and-miss posting (bet you guys figured it out!). 

I have been learning a tough lesson….. I’m sure you’ve heard the adage “You’ve got to take the good with the bad”.  Well, I will go a step farther:  Sometimes the good IS the bad.  What brought this on, you ask??  What has shaken my usually perky, positive demeanor???  My glass-is-half-full persona???  Well, it’s like this:  I have a marvelous life, a promising career, plenty of money (relatively speaking) and all of the promise that a middle aged woman could wish for; sounds pretty freakin’ awesome doesn’t it??  Well get THIS:  I DON’T HAVE THE ENERGY TO LIVE MY AWESOME LIFE.  Looks like it’s time for a hard earned existential life crisis ya’ll…..  WTF……  More to come…..

 

 

I Woke Up Like This!


Well, here I am with another sporadic, random update…… Believe it or not, I have at least a dozen draft posts in-progress but haven’t had the casabas to go-live and toss them out. Some of them are personal and I have to be in the right frame of mind;  I’ll get there…… BUT that’s not why I’m here this time!

I wanted to give an update on my latest odd event:  I woke up vegan-seriously.  When did I realize it?  When my man came over and had a “where’s the beef” moment!  Prior to that I hadn’t noticed because I live alone, cooking and shopping for myself.  The last time I recall having a conscious thought about animal products was back in March–I threw out a half gallon of milk that had gone bad.  I decided to not buy more until I wanted it and have not wanted it yet.  That same day I mixed my last three eggs into the dogs’ food;  they had been in my fridge for an unknown period of time and the “best by” date was way, WAY back when.  I decided to buy more when I wanted them, but not until.  Why?  Because I really hate to waste things, especially food.  As far as meat products go, I have never been a big consumer so it was  normal for me to NOT have much (if any) around the house.

Where am I going with it ~OR~ what’s next?  No idea/no clue!  What I do know:

1.  I feel better.

2.  My lab results look better

3.  My blood pressure is normalizing & if the trend continues I will be off of BP medications before Thanksgiving.  This is miraculous, given that I come from a multi-generational predisposition to malignant hypertension.

4. It’s a lot less expensive eating this way. 

I will roll with it and see how it goes, updating as I go along.  This post will fall under the heading of “projects in progress”; we know I have no shortage of those!  I would love to hear any insight you guys have to share. 

Biochemical Response?


Have you ever felt panicky & hyperventilated at the thought of letting someone (or a group of someone’s) down?  Even when you were right??  AND you didn’t give a flying rats ass about what they thought??  I just had that automatic response to a situation I’ve seen coming, and I’m spending a moment trying to figure out why.  I know a sense of disappointment comes from ones unmet expectations, but I am also learning that it is fine for those with unreasonable expectations to FEEL DISAPPOINTMENT. I’m sure my response comes from my innate desire to be a fixer & people pleaser.   Any of you guys ever experienced this??

Still Paring Down


Another brief update:  I am SO enjoying being out of school!!  I’m catching up on things I have allowed to slide and it feels great.  Even better, I’ve chosen to give up my second job.  Now that I’ve taken my full-time position, it has been overwhelming and I can’t devote the time I should to job # 2.  I’m happy with my choice and I feel at peace with it.  My last day will be the 1st of July–Counting down! I love paring down my schedule as much as paring down my clutter!!

Hello!! Is there anybody out there???


I figured it was time to knock the dust off of my blog!!  Suddenly,  I have a little more time and wanted to get going again. 

The reason I have more time is…….(insert drum roll)….. I have FINALLY finished my MSN in Leadership & Management!!!  What an ordeal, but worthwhile.  IF I have another foray into academics, it will NOT have the word ACCELERATED connected to it in any way.  Lesson learned!  

Looking forward to blogging again!!!!  (happy dance!!!)

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