Back in ‘the day’ I was the go-to girl. First one in–last one out, volunteering for extra assignments, taking extra classes and I LOVED IT.
Setting goals, planning strategies and achieving outcomes was second nature and I was accustomed to being successful. Sounds a little smug & bitchy when I lay it out like that……
When I faced a difficult task, I dove into and completed it–one little task at a time–and it seemed so easy to me then. Now I’m faced with NO LONGER being the go-to gal because my health won’t allow. So….I (in my mind) have an obligation to manage my life and health as well as possible. Doing so will keep me as active as possible for as long as possible–makes sense.
HOWEVER…..My personal discipline has evaporated like water on hot pavement. What the hell happened to me??? I know I feel better when I eat better–do I do it??? NOOOOO. At work last night I ate a piece of coconut cake and a snickers. I told myself I wouldn’t “indulge” at work– yet I did.
Everything has a pay-off or we wouldn’t do it; that’s human nature. So what am I gaining by sabotaging myself??? Suggestions please….. Am I afraid of being successful and feeling better?? I sure hope not…. MY goal is to shed 20 lbs–it’s not rocket surgery for pete’s sake. Maybe it’s time to start taking my own advice?? Ya think??
I also know I feel better when I stretch 15 minutes a day, but I don’t do it. Why the hell not?? I feel better when I keep a consistent sleep schedule, but I don’t do that either. What’s really crazy is I teach all of this stuff to my patients and encourage them to use whatever tools necessary to achieve their goals. Yet I’m not doing it and if I’m not compliant, I’m sure they aren’t either most of the time.
I’m gonna have to get to the bottom of my psychological quandary because I REALLY hate feeling like a failure…..
Tips, tricks & suggestions appreciated!!