Ah, unpredictable unpleasant episodes….For the past few weeks I’d been feeling pretty daggone decent. I’d piddled with some projects, started to catch up on house stuff and even felt a little like ‘me’. Then…….
Wednesday morning I fixed my morning cup of coffee, sat down to sip it and felt the ghastly familiar “ick” feeling when I swallowed. That feeling is my body telling me “no more food ’til further notice and you’re gonna feel unbelievably bad for D-A-Y-S.” Soon comes the aching, intermittent fevers, headache, eye pain, fatigue & both northern and southern bathroom symptoms which shall remain nameless. FOR DAYS…. Now it’s Saturday & this is my first attempt at moving around. Everything is piled up around my couch. Papers, clothes, empty 7-up cans, animal hair, books. I haven’t showered or changed clothes; I wish my hair & teeth belonged to one of my enemies and my special ‘cologne’ is one of a kind….
Damn, I’m never gonna get this mess caught up…..All of my clothes are dirty because I had been behind on them anyway; my dishes are dirty because I felt to bad to stand up to load the dishwasher. I flippin’ hate all of this. These crappy episodes can hit at any unexpected time & nothing helps.. I used to go to the ER and they always admitted me for anywhere from 4-9 days. Yes, I was ‘better’ but I’ll never be fixed. Unless I start having dehydration symptoms I ride it out at home. Saves money & hassle, but sometimes the hospital pain management is awesome….
I don’t know what I’m gonna do to get my life under control. I’m so afraid of loosing everything and my options are pretty limited at this point. I’m gonna go on the day-by-day plan and see how it turns out….